Hello again! Wow, it has been a while hasn’t it? How have you been, I hope all is well.
The last few months have been an odd time for me and my maker career. I’ve really struggled to come on here and talk about crochet and the creative things I have been up to and so I’ve ended up just staying quiet. The truth is that I don’t really have a lot of confidence in my abilities with yarn and hook, I do it like so many of us, as a form of therapy to help with my anxiety and never really intended to make it anything more than that.
But then I became aware of this amazing online community of makers and designers who dedicate their life to working with yarn and a big piece of me was desperate to get involved. It’s a dilemma though isn’t it? Suddenly making public something that has been a personal thing that you do for yourself for so long. I have certainly struggled with it, because for me it opens up opportunities for comparison, competition and self doubt.
Instagram is particularly challenging for me and my tendency for self doubt. It’s so easy to get caught up in counting the followers and comparing amount of likes. I know also that a lot people, myself included, are struggling with potential ‘shadow banning’ or at least strange limitations on their account which affects visibility and therefore growth. This kind of thing seems very unfair and can be disconcerting, particularly when you see other user’s accounts dramatically gaining followers, likes and popularity; it leaves you wondering what you did wrong.
Social media is a bit of a double edged sword though and I have always known this, which is why I stopped using Facebook when I was 19 and haven’t gone back. It can make you feel amazing when a photo you post gets tonnes of ‘likes’, it’s life affirming and encouraging and makes you feel justified that you are doing the right thing. Popular accounts are mimicked, their photos studied and replicated to try and create that success for others. This quest and constant need to try new things to increase followers or to get that elusive re-post (where another account posts your photo because they love it so much) is addicting and ultimately, I think, destroys or at the very least damages creativity.
What I have come to realise is this. Instagram and other forms of social media aren’t everything. There are other ways to share your passion with others and connect with people and blogging is certainly one of them. Don’t get me wrong, Instagram has it’s place and I wouldn’t ever want to stop sharing my crochet on there. I think I just need to remind myself not to get caught up in the hype and popularity of it all and try and maintain a semblance of who I am and what I’m about while on a social media platform. To achieve a balance is what it’s all about.
So to help with this balance I will be on here a lot more often from now on, because I truly think blogging is a special art form which we are at risk of losing to instant gratification type platforms such as Facebook and Instagram. When I first started this blog I was so excited to share all my ideas with people and to have them share ideas with me. I have always loved writing too, so it seemed the perfect step for me and I know it still is. Blogging is something I want to have as part of my weekly routine and so I will be on here much more often from now on, sharing my crochet patterns and makes as well as other projects and thoughts about life.
I really hope you will join me.